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Title: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on July 13, 2010, 08:57:22 AM
Man it's been a crazy six months.
I've had four deaths, one of my aunts just got married for the third time(why would you do that), and we had a new baby.

The new baby is the best part without a doubt(kind of redundant isn't it)
She was born may 25th. She is the first female in our family in 85 years, no lie.

Her name is Aeryn Jade(yup that Mara Jade)

Here's a pic of her:
(http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/vash34/AERYN%20JADE%20BIRTHDAY%20MAY%2025TH%202010/aerynjadebirthday014.jpg)

Here's a pic of me....Yes there's tears  :'( and snot  :P  lol
(http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/vash34/AERYN%20JADE%20BIRTHDAY%20MAY%2025TH%202010/aerynjadebirthday007.jpg)

It was a scary day for me too be honest(after four kids no worries right as if).
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: wraithnine on July 13, 2010, 11:23:28 AM
congrats mate!
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on July 13, 2010, 12:45:39 PM
Hey wraithy, thanks a lot.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Luke Sprywalker on July 13, 2010, 02:47:05 PM
Congrats on a beautiful daughter!
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: dana.raye.smith on July 13, 2010, 04:28:31 PM
Condolences on the run of bad luck.
And Congrats for the beautiful lil girl.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on July 13, 2010, 06:34:57 PM
Thanks guys, it's been an interesting year so far.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: TheCloneCommander on July 13, 2010, 07:28:00 PM
Congrats Mate believe me when i say she will change your life!! my little gal is 3 and a half now and she thinks she rules the roost!! lol she has me wrap around her little finger, lol....and Our Son!! boy he is only 6 months old and has a huge temper when he doesnt get what he wants,... gets that from me lol

nappy patrol is some times very interesting, i think a bomb disposal unit have a safer job...

enjoy them while they are that age it goes soooooooo quick!!! but after 4 kids you would be a pro at it lol
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Phatty on July 13, 2010, 07:52:21 PM
First off, Joe, How DARE you wait this long to announce the birth of your daughter!  She's beautiful, and you are the ONLY other person I've ever met who spells the name Aeryn that way!  I've been using that for various reasons for years!  A beautiful name to go with a beautiful girl!  Sorry to hear about the deaths in your family, my friend.  And I have to agree about the 3rd wedding: I can't guarantee this, but I'm pretty sure if my marriage ended, I would NOT be signing up for a second round, much less a third round!
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: kreeper2 on July 13, 2010, 08:52:40 PM
Bro as a father of five girls (yes five) they are the best thing to ever happen to us nerds better buy a shotgun or a big dog shes very beautiful and may god keep her safe for a long time congats!!!
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Irish Ninja 97 on July 14, 2010, 05:38:10 AM
Congrats!
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on July 14, 2010, 07:22:03 AM
Congrats Mate believe me when i say she will change your life!! my little gal is 3 and a half now and she thinks she rules the roost!! lol she has me wrap around her little finger, lol....and Our Son!! boy he is only 6 months old and has a huge temper when he doesnt get what he wants,... gets that from me lol

nappy patrol is some times very interesting, i think a bomb disposal unit have a safer job...

enjoy them while they are that age it goes soooooooo quick!!! but after 4 kids you would be a pro at it lol

She already has honestly. I'm still so weirded out in a good way that I have a girl, instead of another boy.

She already has me wrapped, and she has her mothers temper, her brothers have mine....I feel sorry for her boyfriends.

Babies are awesome, their sweet and cute and fun and then bang older and temper ridden throwing tantrums....But my life owuld be nothing without them.

First off, Joe, How DARE you wait this long to announce the birth of your daughter!  She's beautiful, and you are the ONLY other person I've ever met who spells the name Aeryn that way!  I've been using that for various reasons for years!  A beautiful name to go with a beautiful girl!  Sorry to hear about the deaths in your family, my friend.  And I have to agree about the 3rd wedding: I can't guarantee this, but I'm pretty sure if my marriage ended, I would NOT be signing up for a second round, much less a third round!

I'm slow lol.
I mean seriously, 85 yrs for a girl, all us Ferretti males are slow lol.

I honestly got scared when the doc pulled the baby all the way out, I thought she had a penis......but it was the umbilical cord.
Even moments after delivery I was scared she wouldn't be a girl.

When Lyn and I were looking through names, on one of those name websites, cause the wife stopped liking the original first name Ailyn(Bobas relation), we had to choose another name.
We both found Aeryn, loved the meaning of the name, and it fit so well with her Middle name Jade. So we were super excited about it.

It's not the traditional spelling of Erin, which is nice, no offense to anyone on that who likes that spelling.

Thank you for the well wishes on the deaths. It's been hard too loose and aunt, and then two cousins, whom were only a few years older than me. Kind of kicked me in the gut at first like, holy shit, that shouldn't be possible.
But god has a plan, that will never make sense to any of us, so I just look too that and get some reassuring from that.

I love my wife there's no doubt  n that, but if I broke up with her and we went separate ways, this mando is done as done can be.
I was an alter boy, married, ten yrs of catholic school, and 4 kids with the same woman.....I'M DONE WITH MY TOUR OF DUTY for God.
After that it's time too move into the cabin, get fatter, grow a bigger beard, and make my own clothes in the woods for the rest of my life lol.

Bro as a father of five girls (yes five) they are the best thing to ever happen to us nerds better buy a shotgun or a big dog shes very beautiful and may god keep her safe for a long time congats!!!

FIVE GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How grey is your hair, seriously. God bless you my friend.

Oh the gun part is in the works, the dog will happen, but she has lots of protection already.
She has three older brothers lol.
Not too mention me lol.

Thank you for the warm thoughts and well wishes for her.

Congrats!

Thanks Ninja
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on August 09, 2010, 12:16:19 PM
Well what a three weeks Ive had.

My little one isn't doing well, well she is doing well, but her doctor says she is not gaining weight, enough.
She's alert, moving, cooing, laughing, keeping her head up, eatting like a pig and etc. She has grown several inches, and is out of most of her clothes.
But the doc says her weight isn't good enough.

How does something grow and yet not put on mass?

So Im worried about her and the wife is beside herself, because honestly herself and myself have had a lot of arguments over the little ones doctor. He sounds like a quack too me, as most doctors are today.
Their all too  connected with the government, who is up the ass of the pharmacuticals companies, and making it one big money making bullshit session.

I swear what the hell do doctors these days go to school for? How to take more peoples money unless their celebraties?

Add too it my uncle died on thursday.
It was out of freaking no where, and now my mom's family is in an up roar because of his wife, whom no one likes, because we all know she married him for his money.
His wife has pretty much excluded everyone from anything, and my other aunt has already had it out with her several times since last week.

That wednesday before, I was rearended going to dinner at my grandmothers. Some teenager, who is 17 and only had his license for about a month, rearended me right in the middle of rush hour  traffic.

My wife and I were hurt, the wife is more bad off than myself.
We had all the kids in the car at the time too.

Pretty much anyone who reads this can assume, big old joe, was not pleased. My wife said I was out of the car in seconds, of course as soon as my feet hit the ground the wife called 911. She heard me and so did the dispatcher, a lot of f-bombs, names and such were thrown at this kid.

nEEDLESS TO SAY, A WEEK LATER im STILL WAITING FOR HIS INSURANCE COMAPNY TOO CALL ME. sO i CALLED MINE, WHOM i WORK FOR, AND ASKED SOME QUESTIONS...WELL THE ASSHOLE DIDNT FILE A CLAIM.

So my company is calling his and filing the claim with them.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: wraithnine on August 09, 2010, 01:01:35 PM
dont worry yourself to death over the little one too much just keep an eye on things as long as she seems to be happy is feeding and growing i think the weight issue will suddenly disappear  ,they told us the same with my youngest Sam  but he is now ten years old and built like a tank !. just keep a weather eye on her , if your wife is breast feeding  your daughter it may be that she needs a bottle of nutrient packed baby milk to give her that boost .in england if you are concerned the best person to talk to is a midwife (not sure if you have those in the states).

i can sympathise about your uncle mate ,we (my dad and myself and the police) found my uncle  dead in his house on saturday (he was very much a recluse) and they reckon he had been dead at least a month maybe more  ,my dad is really cut up as he lost his younger brother to cancer about 6 years ago and he is now the last of his family (excluding us kids of course)
and i have an MRI next week and i am dreading the results ....

so all i wanted to say is chin up mate ,and all the best from blighty
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on August 09, 2010, 06:03:01 PM
dont worry yourself to death over the little one too much just keep an eye on things as long as she seems to be happy is feeding and growing i think the weight issue will suddenly disappear  ,they told us the same with my youngest Sam  but he is now ten years old and built like a tank !. just keep a weather eye on her , if your wife is breast feeding  your daughter it may be that she needs a bottle of nutrient packed baby milk to give her that boost .in england if you are concerned the best person to talk to is a midwife (not sure if you have those in the states).

i can sympathise about your uncle mate ,we (my dad and myself and the police) found my uncle  dead in his house on saturday (he was very much a recluse) and they reckon he had been dead at least a month maybe more  ,my dad is really cut up as he lost his younger brother to cancer about 6 years ago and he is now the last of his family (excluding us kids of course)
and i have an MRI next week and i am dreading the results ....

so all i wanted to say is chin up mate ,and all the best from blighty

Damn dude...
That puts my entire week, to a small amount of nothing.

I feel so bad for your dad and you. I can't even begin to imagine what in the hell that was like.

Thanks for the well wishes and the positive story bro, we need it.

I'll keep you and yours in your prayers for your uncle. but especially for your dad.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Tamer on August 09, 2010, 06:26:40 PM
Wow, what a read. I have had a few years with luck like this.

My little girl was born premature and had the same weight issues. You can see a picture of her on the front page today. Don't let those quacks get you in an uproar.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on August 10, 2010, 07:13:53 AM
Wow, what a read. I have had a few years with luck like this.

My little girl was born premature and had the same weight issues. You can see a picture of her on the front page today. Don't let those quacks get you in an uproar.

My wife is the one most worried, Im worried, but since Lyn is breat feeding she feels like she is failing.
I agree that they are quacks for sure. This guy is a complete quack....We have another weight check on thursday, which I AM GOING TOO......so we shall see how he likes my ear full.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on September 02, 2010, 11:06:07 PM
Wow, what a read. I have had a few years with luck like this.

My little girl was born premature and had the same weight issues. You can see a picture of her on the front page today. Don't let those quacks get you in an uproar.

My wife is the one most worried, Im worried, but since Lyn is breat feeding she feels like she is failing.
I agree that they are quacks for sure. This guy is a complete quack....We have another weight check on thursday, which I AM GOING TOO......so we shall see how he likes my ear full.

Well that weight check came and went.....I went in and honestly this freaking doctor is the biggest weirdo or just plain scared of me that he never even came in the room.
He actually spoke to us through a wall, no lie, his office was behind the wall of the room we were in, and he never came in the room. His nurse/sister in law weighed Aeryn, which she gained(thank god), so he asked, through the wall " did she gain?"...now see in other weeks I didn't go in and Lyn was questioned if we...FED HER?
UM no we just threw her in a corner and let her fend for herself you dumb ass, so needless to say I was in no mood for a question like that, and was quite prepared for my full blown rebuttal, his whatever told him that she did, and the she "PASSED THE TEST" funny I didn't know there was an exam on that said day? WTF DOES THAT MEAN?

He WANTED her to gain an ounce a day....Lyn asked this prior to this weight check...but in times before she had gained almost two ounces a day, and yet he still had her come back in....GUESS HE DIDN'T expect me to waltz in.

Lyn told me it seemed as if he hid in his corner because I was there.....that's our only guess as too the change in his constant weight check nonsense.

I've been told on many occasions, I'm menacing and scary because of how I always have a snarl like look on my face....so I WONDER if he was almost taking advantage of Lyn's worriment towards our child.

But the good thing is that she is doing better...eating like a pig and gaining weight, so we shall see if the trend truly ended the last time with doctor moron.

A family friend actually had an old school child scale from when he was a child that his mom kept. So this old school, sheet metal, American made awesomeness of old school goodness still works.

The old test with a 5 pound bag of floor worked out correctly.

So we have been weighing her on that and she is over ten pounds now, so that means she is gaining nicely.

Now too the other big piles of bullshit that has been plaguing us......

It's been a month since the accident, to this day I have yet too hear from an adjuster from the other company....Had my vehicle too a repair shop for an estimate, already at 530 bucks....

Last week an appraiser from the company came out too my house....he actually got loud with me about not answering the phone to his calls, um I work and um go to the store...have a life...of course the number he calls on comes up as unavailable, um I have caller ID I don't answer numbers I don't know.
He then went on too tell me earlier in that week he drove by my house and that my car wasn't in the drive way.....I HIT THE CEILING ON THIS.....he got louder and so did I, he said I don't have to do this estimate, and I said actually you do, I work in the insurance business and legally as per the police report, your client is at fault, which makes you guys legally responsible for this claim and the restoration of my car....he got very quiet after that and left soon after. But before he left he told me that he did and the company didn't know that there was a police report....SO THE FUCKING KID DIDN'T REPORT A THING AT ALL AND THIS COMPANY IS FREAKING INCOMPETENT!!!!!!

For the last month Lyn and I have been seeing a chiropractor almost every other day for all the pain we're in. Lyn seems too be progressing to being better.
Me, it only seems too be getting worse. My doctor actually told me there is a chance that I have nerve damage in my back that will probably never get better.

So Ive been wrestling with the idea of suing these jerkoffs. I have a feeling that I might win, given the asshole never even put the claim through, thus making him negligent already.

I have another appointment tomorrow with my doc, and we shall see.

My depression has gotten worse over this and all the pain and symptoms Ive been having...this might be too much info for some...but with all the back and muscle pain, I have had a hard time being able too go too the bathroom normally.

Ive been constipated a lot and with all the abb muscle pain associated with the accident it has been forcing my bladder too leak more. So because of all this shit, I can't shit, and piss too much.
I can't sleep worth a damn because of the pains........We all just got over the flu or some kind of pestilence of some kind that made us all sick.

Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on September 02, 2010, 11:07:38 PM
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Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on September 02, 2010, 11:10:21 PM
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Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on September 03, 2010, 03:36:43 PM
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Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: beige-4 on September 04, 2010, 01:08:49 PM
woah!! you have a extrodanary life there .... not to be rude but this actually is quite a awesome thing to read if you made a autobiography book ill buy it
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on September 04, 2010, 09:13:15 PM
No offense taken....I've thought about writing a book on families that are totally dysfunctional, and the other problems that come along with it.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: beige-4 on September 18, 2010, 02:52:56 AM
my family is quite weird and wonderful dad : 25 years in a row london best tattooist : football hooligan too : lived with most west ham players .. loads .... has loads of money ... been charged with attempted murder but found out it was someone else after 7 years in prison class a ... mum: from the terrorist area of basque ( south france ) shes dum as a rocking horse ..... sister : has a rare disease that makes her have more male hiormones than what she needs witch is why shes lesbian ..... brother : fitness instructor with ymca makes 300 000 each month .. then me : raf pilot ( off duty ) had a inedent in helmands where my heli got blown down ... luckily the rocket didnt hit any fuel or servers and we just hit the ground , i suffered concussions and a scar on my temple , a rescue team  got us out of there in tim now im off duty for seven weeks , been divorced due to army and not seeing my wife , my kid is very bad at school and on the verge of being expelled , again .
sorry to be off topic ...
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on September 18, 2010, 07:46:17 PM
my family is quite weird and wonderful dad : 25 years in a row london best tattooist : football hooligan too : lived with most west ham players .. loads .... has loads of money ... been charged with attempted murder but found out it was someone else after 7 years in prison class a ... mum: from the terrorist area of basque ( south france ) shes dum as a rocking horse ..... sister : has a rare disease that makes her have more male hiormones than what she needs witch is why shes lesbian ..... brother : fitness instructor with ymca makes 300 000 each month .. then me : raf pilot ( off duty ) had a inedent in helmands where my heli got blown down ... luckily the rocket didnt hit any fuel or servers and we just hit the ground , i suffered concussions and a scar on my temple , a rescue team  got us out of there in tim now im off duty for seven weeks , been divorced due to army and not seeing my wife , my kid is very bad at school and on the verge of being expelled , again .
sorry to be off topic ...

Seems, everyone common person has a family that can be 50 percent normal, and the other side is way off kilter.

No worries about off topic
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on February 28, 2011, 09:10:22 PM
Haven't been in here in a while. Had a lot going on.

My little girl is doing well, and is chubby and very happy. I lost my job after 8 yrs two weeks ago, and looking for a new one.
Beyond that it's nice to be on here again.

I have too put p the movie I took of my echo base dio and the work Ive been doing on my tattoine dio.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Spookymufu on February 28, 2011, 09:58:48 PM
I have too put p the movie I took of my echo base dio and the work Ive been doing on my tattoine dio.

yes..yes you do.....
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Clonehead on February 28, 2011, 10:49:14 PM
Haven't been in here in a while. Had a lot going on.

My little girl is doing well, and is chubby and very happy. I lost my job after 8 yrs two weeks ago, and looking for a new one.
Beyond that it's nice to be on here again.

I have too put p the movie I took of my echo base dio and the work Ive been doing on my tattoine dio.
Good to hear from you, Joe. Sorry about the job. Welcome to the unemployed club.
Cant wait to see your movie.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on March 01, 2011, 09:26:40 AM
Haven't been in here in a while. Had a lot going on.

My little girl is doing well, and is chubby and very happy. I lost my job after 8 yrs two weeks ago, and looking for a new one.
Beyond that it's nice to be on here again.

I have too put p the movie I took of my echo base dio and the work Ive been doing on my tattoine dio.
Good to hear from you, Joe. Sorry about the job. Welcome to the unemployed club.
Cant wait to see your movie.

Seems too be happening too a lot of people anymore.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Clonehead on March 01, 2011, 09:34:41 AM
Haven't been in here in a while. Had a lot going on.

My little girl is doing well, and is chubby and very happy. I lost my job after 8 yrs two weeks ago, and looking for a new one.
Beyond that it's nice to be on here again.

I have too put p the movie I took of my echo base dio and the work Ive been doing on my tattoine dio.
Good to hear from you, Joe. Sorry about the job. Welcome to the unemployed club.
Cant wait to see your movie.

Seems too be happening too a lot of people anymore.
I'm used to it during the winter. As an ironworker, in my part of the country, work is seasonal.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: DocOutlands on March 12, 2011, 12:09:16 PM
Be glad you guys don't live in Louisiana - thanks to the govt's over-reaction and insane moratorium on off-shore drilling post-BP disaster, the state's entire economy is in the crapper.  Which is kinda bad for those of us who work in the oilfield-type industries...
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on March 30, 2011, 07:15:21 PM
Haven't been in here in a while. Had a lot going on.

My little girl is doing well, and is chubby and very happy. I lost my job after 8 yrs two weeks ago, and looking for a new one.
Beyond that it's nice to be on here again.

I have too put p the movie I took of my echo base dio and the work Ive been doing on my tattoine dio.
Good to hear from you, Joe. Sorry about the job. Welcome to the unemployed club.
Cant wait to see your movie.

Seems too be happening too a lot of people anymore.
I'm used to it during the winter. As an ironworker, in my part of the country, work is seasonal.

I hear that.....

Be glad you guys don't live in Louisiana - thanks to the govt's over-reaction and insane moratorium on off-shore drilling post-BP disaster, the state's entire economy is in the crapper.  Which is kinda bad for those of us who work in the oilfield-type industries...

I have a lot of friends down there, and they feel the way you do. I despise our gov and all that they shit out.


Well had several adventures this passed month. My youngest son had to be rushed to the er, he decided to fall and slash his head open...7 stiches for that. Been taking care of my wife who was really sick for a month. Things have been hard. The job front is nill and so Ive decided to be a stay at home dad and find away to go back to school. My wife is looking for work since she has a degree, so at least she has more to offer than I do.

It's nice to be home on the yards ago.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Phatty on March 30, 2011, 07:27:04 PM
Glad to have you back, I just wish it were under better circumstances!
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: wraithnine on March 30, 2011, 10:26:34 PM
yeah  i can relate  mate ,good to have you  back ,but i hope things turn a corner for you
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on April 01, 2011, 09:47:05 AM
Thanks guys!! It's just another major bump in the road, we'll get passed it one way or another.
Once I get my return check, hurry it up already lol, me personally I'll be out of debt completely.
My wife still has some school debt so it's all that's left at all mine is gone.

It's nice too say with all that has gone on that I actually be out of debt, besides the kids, food etc, for the first time in 11 yrs.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on October 17, 2011, 10:28:02 PM
BLOWS AWAY DUST....Cough cough aaaaahhh chooooo

Man it's been a while.

Since last time I was on a lot has happened.

First I wanted my return check to get out of debt...well that didnt happen because the GOVERNMENT took my money to pay off my wifes student loans...UM WHY? They 12 grand from me, an unemployed father of four...I mean really?

So that hopes went down the drain. It has other longer parts to the story but this was the main important part.

After looking for work all summer and finding literally nothing.
AFTER applying for several jobs and not even getting a return screw you, Im still unemployed.

I talked it over with the wife and Ive decided to open my own lawn and garden business. So next season I hope it really takes off and I can be my own many without a boss telling me everything to do and not making jack out of it.

Summer started off awful. My dog was very ill and needed emergency surgery...well since I was broke I bared down for the worst and waited to watch her die. Fortunately my mom actually wanted to help me. Which doesn't happen a lot of the time.

My doggy is doing fine thanks to the  great care my vet showed her. She is back to her normal self of being a loveable goof ball. Which was nice, but things seemed to go further down the crapper.

My summer ended well, not really at all. I woke up August 20th to my heart going crazy. I  felt really really horrible. SO I got up and thought maybe it was a panic attack. So after doing some calming breathing and trying to relax it didnt stop.
So I got dressed and woke the wife up. WIth tears streaming down my face I told her I needed to go to the hospital. Thankfully it is only 2 miles away.

She tried to tell me it was only part of my panic attacks and I was fine that my pulse felt fine...I told her that it didnt. So as I went upstairs to tell my parents to watch the kids my dad started on me that there was nothing wrong and THAT I was fine...in my head I knew I wasn't.

So I went to the hospital and was admitted immediately.

I was in the ER for about five hours. I had a million tests done and a chest x rays.
It turns out I was suffering from an atrial fibrillation.

Once they got some meds into me and something for my nerves it passed.

All my blood tests came back normal except the fact I was majorly dehydrated.
AS IT turns out the day before I was out in the heat, while sick with an sinus infection, doing yard work for my parents all day.
The antibiotics I was on made me sun sensitive.

Thus making me even more dehydrated. In combination of being sick, stressed, and my blood pressure spiking made the attack come on.

The hospital wanted me too follow with a heart specialist. But in the mean time I had to take a heart med to make sure I didnt go back into it.
So that was totally not fun.
The meds made me feel like I was walking through water all the time. It slowed my heart down so much I barely felt it beat.

I  got in touch with the heart doc and they told me I had to be on a monitor for a week. I was like OH GOOD CHRIST REALLY?

So the day later I got my heart monitor with it's own smart phone that monitored my heart and rate and pattern.
Walking around with that on and with the phone constantly with me, made me have a lot more respect for what Anakin had  gone through as vader.

It was a debilitating time for me having to walk around waiting to go for the other tests, I had to wait two weeks after the er  trip, and having to wear this contraption was horrible. All while looking at my wife and kids  thinking I may not be able too see them grow up.

The day for the tests came, and too be totally honest I was scared so shitless I couldn't eat. I had an ekg, a stress test, another heart test that required me to  be shot with radioactive isotopes and another test. All in a three hour period of hell.

I had to wait almost another two weeks to get all the results..back. Worrying every day that I wouldn't wake up to my wife or love and hug my kids...really stressed me and change me a great deal. It woke me up too a lot of things that I had either not paid attention too or just ignored.

I decided to get as right with God as best  as I could. I started praying every day and thanking God for the time I was alive and with my wife and children in lue that something terrible would come out about the tests.

I finally had my consultation with the doc, and she had the demeanor of why are you here. In a positive way because she was baffled as to why this happened. My heart came back perfectly normal, which was a great removal of stress off of me.

She said I no longer had to see her WHICH if a person could emulate with their entire body a shit eating grin, yours truly sure as rain had it.

Through all of this, even before I lost my job, my wife and I found out that we were going to be parents again. So knowing this through all that made it worse on me.

The day is almost here too see what our new little one is going to be. We decided not find out the sex this time around as we have our boys and our girl so we wanted a surprise. She is  due nov 8th, but the doc doesnt think she will make it too then. So it may be another october baby for us.

Through all these things I found I had more people who actually care than I had once known or thought about. Strangers/friends on facebook were more concerned than  the majority of my own family, which hurt but also didnt given my relations with my family. I realized how many friends I actually have in this world and it made me feel really really good.

Something that stuck with me through all of this was a dream I had. I dreamt of my  grandfather, who was never a soft man too be around. He was in his kitchen in my fathers home town of Coaldale PA....now understand I was never in that kitchen and have never seen pics of it. He, my grandmother, and my father lived above a bar that my grandparents worked at. He was wearing his bare keeping clothes and had all his hair, which I only ever saw in pictures. He said to sit down, everything was white in the room, bright white, and he said JoJo you have to calm down. He keep saying it over and over.....a week later I had the episode with my heart.
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: DocOutlands on November 06, 2011, 12:19:46 PM
Geeeeeez...  I haven't hit the ER yet, but some days I think I'm not far from it.  Hang in there ... or you'll hit me on your way down!!   >:D >:D
Title: Re: Joe's world
Post by: Mandalore the skepsis on November 08, 2011, 10:42:05 PM
Hey Doc.... Thanks for the thoughts. Ive been trying too keep myself feeling good and on a better track, but it AINT been easy.